i met a gal
and showed her how
I frame my window
to see the world
with clear glass panes
seeing the light of the sun
explaining that it will rain
and suggested she try to reframe.
she smiled and said
she felt good around me
and would try as well
to turn that key.
my other friend said
my presence is intoxicating
that its so different when I’m around.
i said i will never know
what its like when I’m not in tow
i only know what i know
and i only know how to be me…
Gratitude is what I feel
this reality is totally real.
positive influences keep entering my life
like vitamins prescribed by the wise midwife.
Totally unexpected and I’m always in surprise
when they shed their outer layer of disguise
feeling so comfortable that they open up
sharing their milk like a mother with a newborn pup.
It’s all coming back as I’m following my bliss
while sharing big hugs and the new cheeks to kiss
I’m getting emotional deposits from all sides
like the moon’s light changing the tide
I’m all in – I know this is what its all about
the rain is bringing prosperity after the drought.
I am in a stage in life that I am totally in love with. Not that I am not typically in love, that is just how I am, but especially right now. I am just a lover in general and I… Love, yes… love that about who I am. It is much better, in my opinion, to be in love… and I am letting that feeling take me away. Love is the best natural high there is… It brings you to search out the truth in things, it inspires you to appreciate the environment that surrounds you, it helps you to come to revelations through self love and exploration, growth, development and transformation…
I love to get lost in my thoughts… I love to get totally into it. I love to dance, I was dancing around by myself this morning for a good hour… ah… I just get lost in it… It may not always make sense, but I think that is just how it goes. You have to lose yourself! In order to find whatever you are looking for you have to get lost… Now that may seem way out there, but that is when you find the best things in life… always. When you are out there doing something that you haven’t done before… creating new memories, creating new thoughts, going for it… enveloping yourself in what you are doing right then… letting the passion override all other things… when you do allow this to happen, great things are bound to come… I believe this wholeheartedly…
Love creates a better world… Love makes everything better.
Random Notes scribed in my journal on a New Year’s Morning somewhere near Santa Cruz:
Be in the place where you can see the most blue skies… where you can get lost in the clouds.
Blue skies like when you are in love…
BE where you feel the most love!
IT all relates to following your bliss, do what makes you happiest and brings you love!
It’s all about the love in all things…
IT should come naturally!
You know you are in your right place when you aren’t wearing any masks and your arms are open and you’re embracing your surrounding space…
Choose the best! The best that fits you so you can be your very best you… where you understand… know the truth, be honest!
Always strive for truth… that IS the truth!
Wind blows, clouds swirl, sun casts rainbows, twists and turns, rolls and expands, dissipates and moves along.
“treading uphill in a slippery bag trying to find my shoes”
I love the warm winter sun on my cheek.
I’ve missed the great and expansive Pacific Ocean… I love California and it’s majestic and diverse coast…
I am blessed and thoroughly grateful to be here.
How to spark the light… the intellectual light in the dark? You can’t just point out and say “this is it.” There is a process of learning, thinking involved that eventually creates a revolution in one’s mind that creates the spark. That spark hopefully leads to light and it all has to start somewhere, but it has to be discovered individually – by one’s own merit – by one’s own way – that’s the only way for anything to have a full and major effect upon one’s life.
Everything is about the light
striving every day to live right.
I take Einstein’s light to mean so much more
like living life without keeping score.
Listening to the interpretation of time and space
while watching the expressions formed on your face.
Slowing it down and talking about time
creates an awareness in my mind.
I love that you make me think
about relations and the importance of being in sync.
Dipping in space as our world revolves around us
this helps me to understand karma and the little stuff.
If you live by this idea you’re bound to know whats good
while funneling your energy to be understood.
So my world really does revolve around me,
this realization finally allows me to breathe.
I have control of the good, bad and neutral that comes my way,
the responsibility is mine and I know it will be okay.
This idea makes incredible sense
now I can hurdle my mental fence.
So if we keep giving all of our love
we’re sure to rise up to the plane above
creating a unique world within space and time
never being restricted, limited or confined.
Searching for our own truths while we’re here together
In our own little dip now and possibly forever.
Forgetting about “things” and focusing within
while living simply we’re bound to win.
Together you and me
will finally know what its like to finally be free.
He just wanted me
to be a doll –
beautiful and quiet,
smiling politely
around the lions and wolves
of his society.
He would urge me to shop
to spend his family’s money
he would always laugh
around his special company.
When I would speak up
about social issues
or speak with the maids
he would always excuse
“she’s American” he’d say
then revert to the
stock prices of the day.
More concerned with money
and financial affairs
with his Blackberry in hand
like a big business man.
I was fooled quite well at first
while living in the high desert
where I thought he quenched my thirst.
A little late it all became clear
after I had rearranged my life to be near.
So I distanced myself more and more
I refused to shop or buy needless things
I didn’t want to be the caged bird
I couldn’t forget how to sing.
I didn’t want him to think he had control
I wouldn’t trade money for my soul
I had to escape
I had to leave
there were greater ideas
like love in which I still believed.
Here’s your very own
platinum card –
the keys to the kingdom.
We won’t say it aloud
as we’re a family quite proud
but it’s time for you
to play along
to dance around
and sing a sweet song
to smile and wave
at the events uptown.
Don’t talk to the maids anymore
and if you cry – shut the door
and when you come out
be ready to talk about
traveling to other countries
or to just listen I should say
about the newest trip planned today.
You’ll hear the same stories
every single time
of traveling bags and empty minds
while listening to jazz
and drinking imported red wine.
Act interested in those
at “The Club”
laugh with those in the hot tub.
They say this is the life
but it surely has a price.
Unfortunately for them
as much as they would try to entice
I could never be bought
as for me freedom has no price.
“Actions speak louder than words”
yet I still believe what you say
but I don’t understand why you lie.
Why not tell the truth
be honest and lay it out
not just spurt a firearm of words
from your mouth and into the air
slow it down
think about what you really want
find who you are
and be honest of high how you set the bar.
I don’t want to be around a liar
someone who just says what they think I want to hear
I’d rather be alone with my own ideas, thoughts and actions
than to have someone like that near
so stay away until you’re ready to speak
straight from the heart
of thoughts that are real
and true feelings that you feel.
Prove it with what you do
and you’ll understand
why I find this to be such a virtue.
Sitting in silence
listening to my breath
without a thought of regret
my mind wanders
to the term “vessel”
I realize in this moment
that’s what makes me tangible
it houses my soul
it houses my mind
in this thought I’m aware of time
not in the societal sense
but in physical birth, growth, aging and death
Another thought kept passing through
lyrics that I love to listen to
“know what I want, know what I can get…”
and I’m reminded only physical limitations can be set
in this life I’m really well off
with a strong mind and an interior so soft.