Overwhelming Sense of Love

It can be and usually is in the most mundane and ordinary of moments when I feel this overwhelming sense of love for my child. This feeling of love and warmth and sparkle just sweeps right over and through me in a big wave. It’s amazing when that feeling happens, and it happens regularly. It can happen when I’m giving him a hug, or picking him up out of his crib from his nap, or when he’s eating in his high chair, or as today, doing imaginary play. I never expect it and am always so happy when it comes. What a beautiful gift to experience.

It’s a different kind of love than I have for my husband, which is also a love I have never known before. It’s a special pure love that permeates my being. I love my child. I am very happy to have this role as his mum. Really what a gift he has been in my life.

Physical Contact and Mother’s Love

So many people talk about their child as being their true love. I have been wondering lately if that is because the amount of nurturing you do for the baby, the amount of one on one time that you spend with bub. Curious if it’s all the oxytocin that has is released with regular cuddles that happen naturally when having a little person.

I can feel that elation even if my bub, who is now a toddler, and way more independent than he has been ever, is just waking up and wants to sit on my lap before he gets into his groove of full speed. I can feel that warmth, it softens me, it brings me back to a space of love, but just being his chair!

When I pick bub up from his crib sometimes, especially in the morning, he may give me a look of pure curiosity, of love, the kind that a lover gives to another in the first moment when they realise how much they love them, and how delightful and new, and special that feels. I love when I get that look, it lights me up. It doesn’t happen very often, but I cherish it when it does.

Then there are the moments of learning and growing that happen with every tumble, with every new movement, that bring us even closer. I am curious if the combination of the cuddles, the special looks, the learning and growing together, is that special mixture to create that true love feeling.

It is absolutely beautiful.

20 Weeks

20 weeks, 12 weeks “corrected”

He stands and supports his own weight

He grabs at objects

He makes eye contact

Smiles, oh those smiles!

Laughs at times,

Makes strong eye contact

Sucks really hard – I have hickeys!

He’s massively determined and makes grunting sounds of effort

He wants to taste everything:

Mom, Dad, Teddy, any toy, tissue, hands, anything that he can put into his mouth!

He has a super strong grip – maybe stronger than mine!

Our super baby no longer looks like a premie!

He has filled out with a double chin and leg rolls!

He is an absolute joy.

 

Pure Joy

Baby lights up when speaking

he gets out his words

as pure joy exudes from his being

he is pure delight

last night I had tears of Joy

joy so strong brought about by my own boy

my own son

my son!

my sun!!!

Such a blessing

I love getting to interact with him

to engage

to be so totally present

and in love

in joy.