How am I to know
if this is real
or just a dream
a dream of “reality”
of the shared unconscious
perhaps all created by my mind
a world chock full of MY
imagination
of MY
manifestations
Am I waking?
Am I awake?
or am I peacefully sleeping with anxiety?
A paradox so it may seem
but anxiety about what happens next
never really knowing how the story will go
or what will be around the inevitable corner
it all leaves me on edge
even in meditation
I still want to know…
and now…?
A hilltop castle
offering stability
to see
like never before
sharpened clarity
spectrum colored view
one bliss filled i remains true
i refute the idea that all life is suffering.
Raising Endorphins
like a fundraiser
to help the common good
to help all around
to help me too
by helping me I do help others
this is true.
raising endorphins
getting high on life
naturally
sharing that positivity
letting it vibrate out of me
uplifting all around
the goal is to uplift humanity
this is my goal
this is the goal of what I do and why I do it
to help others see what they already have
to help inspire change
raising endorphins
energizing myself
having a surplus of energy to share with others
this is all it is
doing my best
sharing my merits
sharing my resources
continuing to raise and share
raise and share
raise and share
I’ve never really had a nuclear family
at least not for too long
it has shifted and changed along th eway
with moments of relative solidity
I am grateful for these constant shifts
its taken a lot to get to this point
of acceptance
of letting go of past hurts and pains
i have forgiven
i still forgive
myself and those around me
everyone does their best
this is true.
that best changes from moment to moment.
this is true.
my family has always been extended
this has helped to create a community in my mind
a global community that extends well beyond parent and child
so much to learn from one another
so much to absorb and exchange
an extended flexible family
an extended flexible attitude
an extended flexible way of living in the world
all of which I am thankful.
Shifting perspectives
continues
daily
moprhing into the new me
voila a breakthrough
my mind is stronger than my eye
my eye is my mind
transcendence
whatever that may mean
going beyond the ordinatry
nothing is as it seems
so many different ways to look
the value system of the objects shifts too
this is where the transcendence is
in shifting the view, the perception of things around
of the way i perceive the world
this is true
this is transcending what i have known into a new era of knowing.
it is indeed that a new era.
Silly to have lived in an era of illusion
perhaps it still exists
though my lenses have shifted
i am just me as perfect as i can be
like no one else I’ve ever really known – all me
allowing myself the freedom of expression, of expansion
letting go of someone else’s – society’s version of perfection
accepting and cherishing my uncommon thoughts
my varying actions
i am me, this is me
holding true to my inner self
it is higher than i can comprehend
the world continues to transform
a unique and individual place indeed
understanding depths of my soul
that I’ve only brushed by before
trusting that i am my best me
knowing that changes each moment
embracing the ever morphing reality
laughing in it, loving in it, growing in it….
Embracing my own self love
releasing others from the unattainable task
creating my own happiness
allowing love in – as it is – right now
without falling back on old patterns
nor projecting the future outcome of this, of now
simply enjoying the now- the moment – what is
enveloping my self, my soul in the goodness and grandeur of love
not making demands
letting go of expectations
allowing me to feel without wanting to own my interest
he will come and go
he always will so it seems
but I – I am here – the one with me always
I cannot stall nor stop energy
so i allow the flow to truly run through me
like a river encompassing, enveloping my everything
from my heart to my soul from well above my head to deep into the ground
allowing love with a resting smile upon my face.A
Canary yellow
wire and mesh
a daffodil’s teacup
bigger than life
its the powerful and luminous dragon
flocks of birds
glistening white, smokey grey and deep black
silhouetted, highlighted
against an ice creamy sunset
Hot, steamy, straightforward
their relationship exuded passion
like of romance novel – a paperback time travel
together they had magnetism that brought everything near
his thick Brazilian accent and hair boasting a machismo city bravado
flowed well with her cool feminine small town California demeanor
until they’d argue – which they did A LOT!
chemistry and electricity never ended.
A strong attchment grew between them
his masculine power overtook her
but she was not a weak-willed woman…
eventually she slipped away
but he followed – they usually do –
A complex story
a complex relationship
intense
both burning bright
the moon and sun can’t ever coexist in the one view for too long
One or the other…
love and hate – its all passion…