i’ll hold up the lantern
on the path we’re on
its what you do
when you can see
to help guide others
to be who they can be
hold still with patience
and love
as every passerbyer
is really just me
in various stages
and cutout forms
all the same
even the thorns
changing my view
altering perception
taking the moment
letting go of what will be
and embracing its
original conception
living life or dreaming everyday
are all the same
some might say
now is all we have
the past was just a second ago
the future is already right here
so everything is truly
all within reach
keep whats dearest
whats true closest to you
to me… if that is time
then here it is
here i am
in this moment
every moment
living, dreaming, being
smiling at what goes on
observing my actions
looking into the reflections
all with love
an incredible amount of love
for if now is all there is
if it is all just right here
then i choose to be in love
inside and out, all around
its a grand way to be
if this is all we have
debilitating thoughts of perfectionism
of someone else’s point of view
internalized and accepted
oddly enough as our own
somehow thinking that others are better
always feeling a bit inadequate
for reasons that aren’t ours
searching for perfection
when its already here
everything is just as it should be
we are as we are meant
as perfect as the flowers and the trees
as the honey that’s collected
as the changing colors of fall leaves
everything is as it should be
time to let go
that view of perfectionism
is outdated, antiquated and detrimental
to a whole self… a whole being
a whole soul
how can one embrace oneself
if we’re constantly searching
looking up and down
backwards and forwards
while overlooking the obvious…
the source, the root…
the perfection is here, now
free from defects
we are made exactly right
exactly as we are supposed to be
i am
it is
we are
perfection
thoughts of a lover swirl in my head
a migration of energy
uniting in a time and place
where my soul was nourished and fed
just for a moment
a savory introduction
attachments, attachments whatever do they mean?
the stated mores of this reality…
a brilliant connection that can never be seen
dancing around in my head like a dream…
the smells of the flowers
the gentle loving touch of a hand
being led through the thicket
by a soul in the form of a beautiful man
a sharing that was pure
not one of “placated people who play by the rules”
i had to get away
so perhaps i am one of those fools
the memory stays with me
as it always will with you…
taking shape
back in the valley
venturing down from the mountains
and away from the ocean
its all so close
yet it is still a valley, a bubble
the darkness reigns unintentionally
be sure to wear your Sunday best
pain on your mask
and join the congregation
its what you do
no harm, the don’t know any different
they all just need love too
so fit in enough…
then slowly but surely
help them see with love…
by just being who i am
who you are
who they are
who we are
back in a time
where values are antiquated
old fashioned ways
conservatism
outward appearances
singing at the pews
wasn’t ever really from here
i just spent time
my time, i needed to learn
i can survive
i must know one extreme
to experience the other
i have to know senseless order
to have perfect chaos
intentional freedom
i must know the mold
to break from it
it isn’t my mold
that is utterly clear
as i find myself back here
so here i am
where i thought i would be
but not how i want it to be
not feeling quite like my best me
sure i can make it work
sure i can morph and transform
compromise
not really my thing these days
not at all
so change is in the air again
oh yes again indeed
there is always a reason for the wind
surely enough the breeze is picking up speed
its not due to lack of opportunity for money
for making a life in the wine country
but its just not me
perhaps it was before
but i’ll never know
lifetimes away from now
i am blessed with incredible gifts
of seeing things as they are
with the ability to follow my bliss
to redefine and forecast
in ways beyond my comprehension
manifestations of dreams
all of them from my past
the same one that led me here
but i am no longer that
so now i guess its time to dream again
to make smaller steps
to build the foundation
to continue my climb
my growth
all or none or so it seems
take it or leave it
these incredible dreams
but for now…
for now…
for now…
just looking for simple happiness
simple truths
simplicity
yet yearning for a bit of a steady home
which i can make happens when i choose
but the wind keeps on blowing
my mind keeps expanding
and my heart… oh my heart… it keeps me moving
i am a feeler with incredible intuition
aware in so many ways
yet a novice to it all
not knowing how to really harness it
so move i must
thats all i seem to know right now
move until i feel it
hopefully someday that feeling will sustain
to leave one reality for another in hopes of something better…
In a few short hours
I’ll be on the road again
waving a fond farewell to the desert
while heading back to the state
where it all began.
this time in a different way
I’ve learned about life and love
following my intuition
and making the most of every day.
there is so much out there
in this expansive world of ours
a variety of different lives to live
an abundance of options
a plethora of fragrant flowers
so many things to waste away the hours.
Tomorrow I’m heading on the road again
who knows what the future holds
but I am sure as time progresses
and I keep trekking down my path
that life will continue to open up
love will be found all around
and once again I will overfill my cup.