heart eyes
of rainbow scenes
her view is only seen
with the Illusion and Clarity of Neptune
the Drive of Saturn
and the Sensitivity of Venus
bigger than life
she draws them in
she loves them
she gives her all
and…
time after time it dissolves
or cracks
or dissipates
or she escapes, escapes, escapes.
i see in your eyes how much you love me
i feel how your arms wrap around and embrace me so…
effortlessly, so openly, so naturally
i feel the comfort around you unlike any other
and of all the high vibrational beautiful people
i’ve been around
you are still the one –
the most beautiful and the highest
i’ve yet to encounter
i wish you had more time for me
i know your door is always open
i wish you had more space for me
i know you’ll always make room
i love you, i know this is true
i do
“its the little things” he says
i’ve missed you, me too
looking over at his smiling eyes
a reflection of me
as the sun says goodbye
perched in the meadow
listening to the aspen
a beautiful place
amidst the tall grasses
a lucid dream
so time spent with him seems
with him
or with me
its all the same
but i do like the energy
that circulates back to me again and again
a pure love
as pure as one might find
of two people coming together
without attachment
one and one is one when we unite…
You see
its all new to me
as novice as i can be
naive to an extreme
i don’t know what it means
i don’t know anything
i can tell how i feel
i’m even compelled to sing
thinking of you
the energy transfers
pulsates and envelops my being
words just come out
motion just happens
the flow is so incredible
but extremely foreign
it makes me nervous
when i’m out of the trance
when i come back to earth
after being higher than…
well, there’s nothing to really compare
shew
exhale
i’m ready to try again
i’m ready to fly again
I want to kill that mosquito
the one that keeps biting me
and draining my chi
it comes to me in the night
when I have given up the fight
it takes up my energy and doesn’t allow me to write
Please find another body to bother
I want to gain my own closure
but its hard when it is also a haggler
in my mind… possibly so
and even though I’ve left I haven’t fully let go
so it flies around me when my head hits the pillow
I am now a hemisphere away
but it finds me anyway…
I guess I must really be drenched by the rain
for it to leave me and cause me no more pain.
So Let the Rain Fall!
Leave Me Be Mosquito!
when we open up and share
when we open up and care
when we start the affair
when we’re naked and bare
in the lovely night’s air
when we decide we are a pair
we’ll embrace and hug like a bear
we’ll be so aware
of each other and our welfare
until one day the dream turns into a nightmare
out of nowhere
and you declare its all in the name of warfare
as you step on my toe and pull my arm hair
as I try to sleep in my comfy nightwear
you exchange a glower for a loving stare
I know it is you speaking from dispair
but I have to leave before before it gets there
you know where I mean and I must prepare
so I run as fast as I can up the stairs
I get on my knees and I say a little prayer
and soon it is over and you say its unfair
that I can just walk away in my old footwear
letting down my bunned long blond hair
trying my best to let go and repair
my dearest true soul and take it elsewhere
beyond where it has been, creating a new lair
where I can be whole again, starting in a new square
eventually I will love again and forget the dispair
I’ll sit in another single armchair
until it is time to share another set of cookware
when others look and say what a great couple they’re
and it all starts again when I am brave and take up the dare
I’ve learned my best not to compare
so I’ll let it be love, precious and rare.
Way back in the day, back seven or so years now… a lover told me… “I love you, man…” I broke his heart, I didn’t mean to, it was never my intention. He loved me but I wasn’t there. It scared me away needless to say and since he said it in a scene where others were at the time… they then started to tease me about it. Then it just became the saying… “I love you, man…” that we would use endearingly and frequently I might add…
So now I find myself back in Yosemite where it all began. I opened up a webpage to listen to some music and there I see an ad. The ad is for a movie entitled none-other-than… “I LOVE YOU, MAN” and to top it off… it comes out on my birthday March 20th…
A funny coincidence? Maybe… It certainly did make me smile… love… what a funny thing… it is amazing how it all comes back around… in some fashion in some way in a time when we are least expecting it… I am going to take this as a friendly reminder of a moment a while back…
I always take the guilt,
I always take the blame,
and yet its me to blow out the flame.
I try my best up to a point
while I watch you light a joint
by this time I am already done
I’m tired of battling and you’ve just begun
then comes the time to plea and bargain
but I’m not up for sale, this isn’t an auction.
I give more chances than I ever should
I look past it all and try to see the good
I know you’re smart and that you’ve understood
then starts the “I could’ve, would’ve, should’ve,”
when all I want is to be free of any falsehoods.
I never understand when you act so hurt
after hearing and seeing all of the signs of alert
I prefer the mountains but can handle the desert
but I’m a water baby and won’t convert.
So let me be free
let me swim as I please
let me buzz around with the honey bees
reaping life’s bounties
smelling the field of daisies
where I wont be made fun of for driving like its sunday
as it is my mode of life to get lost and enjoy the day
so if you can be a bit carefree, please stay
and if not don’t be hurt when I go my own way.
I only need a friend right now
I’d love for you to be that for me
but I’m not sure either of us knows how
my intention is not to cause harm or distress
I’m still trying to figure out where I am my best
I hope you know me well enough
to not take this personal…
that I love you, I’m sure I always will
I just have a lot of stuff to work through from Brazil…
I just spoke with my dad.
He has such an intelligent mind
he knows of the love one can find
he is able to see things before rather than behind.
He chooses to do his own thing
never being forced into a ring.
He has a heart of gold
that will never be bought nor sold.
He has a strong moral base
he takes life case by case.
His charm will woo anyone
yet is big enough to roll up his sleeves to things done.
He shines as bright as the noonday’s sun
and will never shy away from fun.
He says he’s proud and has faith in me
to take the opportunities that I can see.
He knows I’ll choose my own path
creating my own special habitat.
He is able to see beyond those around
yet he stays in our hometown
out in the country is where he can always be found.
He told me I’m not lucky, that it’s been determination
that has fueled my ambition.
He said I’ve created everything good
by being the very best that I could.
He says I’m the one who has created my success
by believing in my growth and doing my best.
God I love my father.
He is unlike any other.
A great man indeed
and always there when I need.
I am grateful to be his daughter
and that he’s my friend and my father.